Earlier this month, we reported that the Oscar-winning star Nicole Kidman and her country music star husband Keith Urban had separated after 19 years of marriage. At the time, insiders were claiming that Kidman was desperately “fighting to save her marriage,” and that she’d felt “blindsided” by Urban wanting to separate.
Hours later, however, Kidman, 58, officially filed for divorce from Urban, 57. This came amidst rumors that Urban had already moved on with a “new girlfriend.”
Now, insiders are claiming that Kidman has “so much resentment” towards Urban, who was the “love of her life.”
Kidman’s ‘Resentment’ Towards Urban
“In so many respects Nicole is doing brilliantly,” a source close to Kidman told Star Magazine. “She’s been a total pro throughout this, and her number one goal is to stay strong and not crumble for the sake of her daughters, as well as herself.”
The insider went on to say that this is “easier said than done.”
“Keith was the love of her life, and it’s not that simple to just turn those feelings off like a tap,” the source continued. “She’s been on auto pilot, cramming her schedule like crazy and sticking tight to friends who are longing to set her up for some fun once she gives the word.”
Kidman may seem like she’s holding it all together. However, the insider cautioned that “the dam has to burst at some point soon.”
“She has so much resentment and heartache that’s inevitably going to come to the surface,” the source concluded. “And when that happens it’s not going to be pretty.”
Kidman And Urban’s History
Kidman and Urban met back in 2005, and they married the next year in 2006. They went on to welcome two daughters together: Sunday Rose, 17, and Faith Margaret, 14. Sadly, Kidman filed for divorce on September 30, citing “irreconcilable differences” at the time.
This was Urban’s first and only marriage. Meanwhile, Kidman was married to her fellow A-list Hollywood star Tom Cruise from 1990 until 2001. Their divorce was extremely bitter, which may explain why she was particularly so reluctant to split from Urban. Indeed, insiders have claimed that Kidman fought to save her marriage with everything she has.
“She didn’t want this,” a source told People Magazine after Kidman filed. “She has been fighting to save the marriage.”
‘I Will Get Through It…’
In a new interview this week, Kidman opened up about how age has given her the tools to get through the dark moments in life.
“The best part is the experiences that you’ve accumulated,” Kidman told Harper’s Bazaar last week. “You go, ‘Oh, I’ve been here before. I actually know how to handle this now’ or ‘maybe I haven’t been in this place, but I’ve experienced something similar to this, and I do know that I will get through it.’”
Though Kidman didn’t directly mention her split from Urban, she made it clear that it’s very much on her mind as she talked about the challenges of life.
“There’s something to knowing that no matter how painful, or how difficult, or how devastating something is, there is a way through,” Kidman continued. “You’re going to have to feel it. You’re not going to be able to numb it. You are going to have to feel it, and it’s going to feel insurmountable at times. You’re going to feel like you’re broken, but if you move gently and slowly — and it can take an enormous amount of time — it does pass.”
“My children [give me the] purpose of being their protector and their guide,” she added. “Promising them that I’m here and that, no matter what, there’s always a safe place to grow up in.”
This has clearly been an extremely difficult time for both Kidman and Urban. Please join us in saying a prayer for them as they navigate this new chapter of their lives!